I was there the whole time, but I’m still not quite sure how I went from “I could never do that” to “I have to do this.”
For years I have toyed with my interest in spanking and submission- exploring it, suppressing it, ignoring it. I have learned that this is a part of me that I cannot ignore or reason away. I am undeniably a submissive, just as I am undeniably a woman and undeniably a nerd.
After years of reading, I started to write back. Slowly at first, and with a great deal of panic with each e-mail or comment. Much to my surprise, I found I had a lot to say on the subject for someone with limited experience. With so much to talk through, it seemed time to get my own place.
Still, I know I have a long way to go in determining what submission means for me. But I also know that this is a process that I want to remember.