I can’t help but feel like something of an imposter writing here. There is a certain irony in writing a spanking blog and not yet having been spanked. What if when it happens I don’t like it? (I know, I’m not supposed to, but you know. . .) While I’ve had these yearnings for so long that I don’t think I need to worry about this changing, it still begs the question-
When does one become a submissive?
I’ve known that I am a submissive since before I was familiar with the word itself. I am not yet sure exactly what what aspects of the general concept apply to me, but I want to find out. I am trying to understand myself not only as an individual but in how I relate to this culture and this community.
But is there some event- some initiation into this club? When does the switch flip from “curious” to “submissive?” It is tempting to say the first relationship, the first discussion, the first spanking. While there is no doubt validity to these milestones, I’m not sure that passing them will make me a submissive any more than my degree makes me a scientist. The steps are important, but they are not the path.
And I’ve never been all that great at doing the steps in order, so there’s no sense in waiting to be spanked before writing about it.