The Lifestyle

Over the last few months, I’ve noticed changes in myself, in how I feel, how I act, how I budget my time. My lifestyle has changed because of my exploration of my submission. “The lifestyle” tends to have connotations of a highly structured domestic life, of whips and chains, demanding masters and kneeling slaves. This is the case for some, but not for me; not now. My submissive lifestyle is quite different.

 

It is a lot of time spent on trains, visiting friends new and old scattered across the country.

 

It is the panic when my parents visit; I did remember to remove the implement bag from the spare room, didn’t I?

 

It is getting over my phone-call-phobia. It is investing in a better phone plan, and finding the time for chats.

 

It is developing the habit of leaving work at a reasonable hour; these are not phone calls one takes at one’s desk.

 

It is an avoidance of small talk.  “What did you do this weekend?” is no longer a question that can be answered lightly.

 

It is late-night buses home from the city, nights of little sleep that are nevertheless more rejuvenating than quiet evenings at home.

 

It is a feeling of general happiness. Contentment. Connection.

 

Belonging.

 

And yes, a few bruises as well.

 

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