2016 has been a very slow year here- perhaps thankfully; there has been plenty else to be getting on with- personally and on a broader level. Although I haven't been writing here, I have still been writing under my vanilla name. Many of the developments of this last year have highlighted the importance and need … Continue reading Farewell to 2016
Category: Thoughts on Submission
To the Security Man at Dublin Airport
Thank you for noticing that I’d accidentally left my floggers in the bottom of my backpack. Better you than my parents. I could have done without the less-than-subtle display and extended Q&A on their identity and use; I’m all for increasing kink-awareness, but the post-screening recombobulation area isn’t an appropriate environment. Again, however, better there … Continue reading To the Security Man at Dublin Airport
Chateau Corrupto
Originally written as an assignment for a geography class- an essay on “My Favourite Place in Ireland”. Teacher, for some reason, was not impressed. *** For me, the best part of Ireland, apart from the pubs, is the castles. It can be difficult to choose a favourite among the quiet isolation of Dunamaise, the imposing … Continue reading Chateau Corrupto
Lost and Found
A few weeks ago, a good friend closed his spanking blog. He did so on his own terms, and for the happiest of personal reasons. It was the best way, if there is a best way, to leave this virtual world. We are still in touch by email, and planning a visit soon. Even so, … Continue reading Lost and Found
Pride, or the Lack Thereof
I finally made it to see the Pride parade this year. I don’t know why it took me so long, I have no excuse. But I’ll be back next year- and the year after that. It is a rare experience to be around so much happiness, so much positive energy. It is a rare experience … Continue reading Pride, or the Lack Thereof
Stack of Notebooks
He had given me a notebook. Handed it to me at the end of the night, those pages with lines written, punishments recorded, reflections documented. Feelings shared. Signed and countersigned. It started a touching memento, a record of a lovely evening. A symbol of hope, too, all those empty pages. Hope that they would be … Continue reading Stack of Notebooks
Opportunities to Shine
I’ve found that involvement in the local spanking community has been very beneficial. I am more confident, more relaxed, and, perhaps most important, have more opportunities to be creative. For example, when a teacher (and I use this term very loosely indeed) asks me to “Name the ten commandments,” and I see this as a … Continue reading Opportunities to Shine
Quitting
I quit my vanilla writing group today. I had tried, honestly tried, to learn, to write, to develop, to debate, to fit in. It was not a good fit, and, worse, was sapping time and energy I’ve come to realise would be better spent here. After weeks of agonising over the decision, days of … Continue reading Quitting
Being Out
I didn’t want the pint. I didn’t have time for the pint. But I had even less time for the worries that had plagued me since Sunday night. *** I have nothing against Harry, quite the opposite. Tedious at times, but he has a heart of gold. And he has a secret- or had … Continue reading Being Out
The Monster
As a dom, you need to learn how to accept that little monster deep inside of you that can hurt others and find some pleasure in it. -Joost of Bad Girls Need God Spankings This wasn’t the first time I’d heard someone describe our particular interest as an inner monster, something ugly and … Continue reading The Monster
Acknowledging Imperfection 